Hunger

Ive been watching over and over again the same program for the last 3 months, i think i pretty much watched all the interesting episodes and youtube leave me no choice but to go seek somewhere else. But i know its bad, i know i shouldnt empty my nights with so much tv. I think since the beginning of december, ive been picking myself up a bit, i felt so lost for weeks, but i think im slowly finding myself again, someone deep inside my exterior. Youtube was just my form of escape, and deep down i knew that, i knew that watching youtube was my form of drug, preventing me from thinking too much. As a matter of fact after taking so many psy class and really listening to them because im sure i have a genuine interest in psy, i know that staring at screen with something playing is more relaxing that staring at a white wall.

I picked up an old interest of mine, 3 days ago, my interest of reading. It's kinda funny coming from someone who never finished a book in high school, maybe except maina and agaguk. But honestly, i really liked reading in elementary school, i know i finished a whole shelve of book at the small library in my school. I think this was the result of working next to indigo, i got bored of walking into clothing stores so i went to a book store instead. But its a bad habit to pick back up during finals, cuz when i start a book, i have to finish it. 3 days, and i finished 3 books... Bad.

I think arbraska fired me up, into knowing what i can do and what i am capable of doing, so hot yoga baby, after finals of course. I think ive never been so happy with myself, even tho im still working on balancing some stuff out in my life. Its not like ive ever been very lost, but i just found a more suitable life for me ahead.

K bye.